Have you ever thought so hard you couldn't think. Like if you tried to put words to paper at that moment you wouldn't know what to say.
After an argument I feel a sense of blame, its all my fault, if I would not have said or did this; this wouldn't have happened, and it goes on and on and on. Then I get an urge to stand up for myself and say "no this is how I feel and it is not my fault". But that urge does not last long... its like that breathe I try to take.... it doesn't last long. And again they win. He wins, the thoughts win, the depression wins, all the crap wins.
What can I do to change all of this?! Will I ever get that answer?
This is one of those times that I am thinking so hard I can't think... I dont know what to write.
